She was the Sweetest Girl .

omg . I Haven't wrote on here in a minute with my family drama BUT im BACK! The latest news is MY NIECE needs to be baker act . Bc straight up the girl has mental problems. Last night I went on a duck duck qoose chase with her. She had driving around for hours looking for her , and she NEVER was found. And I guess I'm very protective and over caring bc I literally told my niece I gave up and it was over for me. And when I go back on my word look how I'm being tested and I dont know how to handle the situation. I truly believe no one cares BUT me bc I took time out my day trying to find her bc the series of events she told me had me believe she was deep in trouble and I was gonna do my best to find out wth happened and my options on handling the problem. But she had me on a qoose chase along with her friend. These girls are 15 years old and seen more dick then tom and harry . On probation with a seven O clock curfew but they dont care and neither does the parents. Though I will state my sister, my niece mother has no custody of her and the foster parent DOESNT give a damn but quick to wanna call the police on me or my family. This lady literally hasnt went to the cops about the situation but is continuing to collect money for my niece who isn't even in her household. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I've been the best thing I could for her but yet she took me for granted and Im tired. My brother told me to LEAVE IT ALONE , my boyfriend told me to leave it alone bc she doesnt care so why should I? Idk Im at a lost for the shit thats going on and on top of everything she keeps saying she's going to kill herself , and at this point im saying BYE bc im not about to let you keep messing with my head about you. If she wants to be dead then so be it , and as for her friend the little girl sent out a text message saying that my niece has killed herself and she wanted everyone to know she loves them. But like I told the other little girl " What kind of Friend or Sister you are bc you allowed her to kill herself and yet your still here" . Some friend you are! Im over this situation and Ima allow God to handle this matter and whatever he feels is best then so be it. I NEVER question his judgement on things.

Our love in YOUR shoes.

I've recently posted the blog No Love Lost , and this blog is the second part to my NEVER ending drama w my EX boyfriend. So last night , he texted me after i sent the text telling him how he's pussy for having A BITCH do his dirty work . And he simply shook his head at me. Throughout the entire night me and him was was arguing non-stop. From him calling me bee's and garden tools , to me telling him how much I hate him. & somewhere towards the end of the arguement we actually got down to point of the arguement. He loves me and I of course is in love w him. He felt as if I was being trifling behind his back smh lol which is bananas! Bc the history of our relationship goes back three years from now, and though in the past I willingly admit I wasn't the BEST girlfriend he had. Literally , Im saying I would cheat daily like it was an addiction for me & bc I never wanted to be alone but have options I cheated. He knew bc I would tell him often. I was young and he was WAYYYY older than me therefore I wasn't trying to be locked down by one person. So fast forwarding to present time , I have fell in love w him so deep bc regardless of all the things that happened he was there for me by my side. And I grown to understand him completely , he waited patiently for me to figure out what I wanted and when I did , I dedicated myself to him and our relationship was the GREATEST. Every phone call and text message makes my heart skip beats literally. And now we're having the biggest arguement of our relationship. Its been going on for four days straight and I literally cant take it , I wish we could go back to the where we was BUT I know it's gonna take a little time and its time Im willing to work at patiently.

Ten Things 2 Remember . . .

1. Put God First
2. Love Yourself Before Loving Thee
3. Your Beautiful
4. Your Courageous
5. Follow Your Dreams
6. Cry Over No Man
7. Live Life Like Its Your Last
8. Your Enemies Are None Other Than Your ExFriends
9. Love Like You've NEVER Loved Before
10. And Be Passionate Towards Everything You Do.

No Love Lost .

Okayy , so last night was the E-N-D for me. I told myself no drama for 2010 and what happens? The first four days of the New Year that's all I have been experiencing. I realize once I let go the problem , the solution will be solved. NEVER thought my relationship w him would end so badly and I ask myself so many times where did it go wrong without me noticing it. What was taking my time away from realizing the situation I was in. I dont know , probably wont know or simply it wasn't me. He wasn't Man enough to tell me he wanted out. Therefore he had his Newbie of a girl TEXT my phone. And me being me was in such a loss for words and feelings that I possible couldn't describe. But I fell behind the childish ways and went to arguing w her about him. Such dummy of me!! Apparently "SHE" is who he wanted , so there shouldnt have even been an arguement over him. Therefore throughout the whole ordeal , i've learned from this heartbreak & that's all you can do. Im still in love w him deeply , I should say but not deep enough to where I'll go through all this bullshxt again. She wins , but I hope she realize that if he'll do it to me a Girl who he claimed has his heart and mind , Then he'll do it to her in a matter of time.