No Love Lost .

Okayy , so last night was the E-N-D for me. I told myself no drama for 2010 and what happens? The first four days of the New Year that's all I have been experiencing. I realize once I let go the problem , the solution will be solved. NEVER thought my relationship w him would end so badly and I ask myself so many times where did it go wrong without me noticing it. What was taking my time away from realizing the situation I was in. I dont know , probably wont know or simply it wasn't me. He wasn't Man enough to tell me he wanted out. Therefore he had his Newbie of a girl TEXT my phone. And me being me was in such a loss for words and feelings that I possible couldn't describe. But I fell behind the childish ways and went to arguing w her about him. Such dummy of me!! Apparently "SHE" is who he wanted , so there shouldnt have even been an arguement over him. Therefore throughout the whole ordeal , i've learned from this heartbreak & that's all you can do. Im still in love w him deeply , I should say but not deep enough to where I'll go through all this bullshxt again. She wins , but I hope she realize that if he'll do it to me a Girl who he claimed has his heart and mind , Then he'll do it to her in a matter of time.